Scott DisicK: ‘I Would Kill Myself’ If It Weren’t For The Kids
Kourtney Kardashian’s family were doing their best to help her keep her mind off of Scott Disick on their family vacation. However, the fun came to a stop when she got home and Scott showed up — he had planned on meeting with Kris Jenner, but all the girls were there . . . and he hadn’t seen them in three months.
Scott revealed he was so upset seeing his kids on their first vacation without him and as a result, brought a bunch of random people to party to Mexico.
“This is the stuff that I don’t understand. You say, ‘I don’t have a family,’ and ‘I don’t have all these things,’ and then we give you one. Why do you destroy it?” Khloe asked Scott when he tried explaining that he lost everyone, not just Kourtney, during their split.
“I’m sure you guys have heard a lot of horrible things about me that I should have just been honest with but I was just too ashamed that I was going to hurt everyone in this family and not just her,” he said through tears.
“I’ve apologized to Kourtney a hundred times but I’ve never apologized to all of you for letting all of you down and embarrassing and I understand I need to help myself way before I can help her, my kids or whatever. But it’s just been a really hard time going from like having all of you guys to having nobody you know.”
Scott revealed that he wishes he could “pick up the phone and call my mom and dad,” a statement that made Kim Kardashian cry. He also explained his addiction issues, and how ashamed he’d was for embarrassing the family. “If I didn’t have those kids I would kill myself. But I have them and I’m gonna be here and I’m gonna make it right for them. You know I just hope somehow, not that I’m religious but God could give me a chance or us a chance at this or something because like I just know that I’ll never have the happiness that I would have otherwise and it’s been nice having you guys in my life for so long so it’s weird to lose that many people that quick you know?”